She’d sworn off profiles for a while.
Muted the app. Left group chats on read. Told herself she was “out” of the lifestyle, like you can just uninstall a part of your nervous system.
Tonight she logs in “just to peek.”
New layout, same chaos. Ads, demands, Doms who sound like they’re reading off the same script. She’s halfway through doomscrolling when she lands on a block of text that doesn’t look like an ad at all. It starts with:
“There seems to be some confusion when it comes to my self-appointed role…”
She almost scrolls past—too many words—but a few phrases snag:
“bond I’m seeking to establish”
“metamorphosis… never without explicit, ongoing consent”
“if my being kind makes me seem less authentic as a Master, you can, politely, fuck yourself.”
Her chest does that annoying tight thing it does when something feels right and risky at the same time.
She reads the door line twice:
“If I wrote you, the door is open.
If you wrote me, I’ll decide whether to open the door.”
For once, she doesn’t rush to type.
Instead, she sits there, thumb hovering, and has a new thought she doesn’t quite trust yet:
“Maybe the question isn’t whether he’ll open the door.
Maybe the question is whether I actually want to walk through this one.”
She saves the profile, locks her screen, and tells herself she’s “just thinking about it.”
She knows that’s not true.
She’s already back on the track.
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